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A Tough Row to Hoe

by Matthew B Everett

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Incomplete 02:51
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Brother Dad 03:34
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I couldn't have known by the twilight what the light, what the day might have shown There was something there but I didn't see you were alone So I left you in my room went out drinking with the ghosts in the thickening gloom wasn't thinking about wakes or cold little tombs you could've stayed the night kept me up with your sleeptalking and walking by the shore nevermore will your fingers turn the latch upon my door Here on the ground I wait for that sound at break of day I climbed to the bottom rung, the clothes were hung and I went outside to see if they were dry I was so tired but we stayed up smoking by the pale moonlight I should've known when you go away you don't come back you can't come back the same When your turn is done you go away you don't come back the same Here on the ground I wait for a sound at break of day But you waited for daylight to fade away and then the dawn looked so delicate and strange even you with your monkey grip somehow managed to give me the slip I couldn't have known by the twilight what the light, what the day might have shown At the fall of night, what the day's last light might have shown I couldn't go with you so I left you in the cold to find your own way inside yeah I left you to die [...now you're underground, and I'm still around, and here comes the day...]
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Climb In 03:25
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Overlooking 03:50
overlooking the worst you've seen along the piers an evil shaft of rain everything dies and we alive hurtle on into this great refrain overlooking everything that made it matter that made it seem like a real sequence of events something we couldn't --second guess overlooking the hearts and minds and the lines play out and we don't feel the tug of anything we couldn't find without a hook on the end of the line and we invent what we can't find And in the dark we can see everything with crystal clarity all of it down to the space between overlooking the scattered stars and the random utterance of the mouths where we are for now we could hear it in the pitch distorted takes we had to sing through gritted teeth and lightning lights up the night and we are silently imploding overlooking if you please and the way they bounced where we slipped the reins overlooking on bended knee yeah the way they bounced where we slipped the reins and we felt our own souls flying through the canopy... and you were watching from a safe distance not saying anything you were laughing at your own discomfort the things between the things between the things that make the things that we could see And then I looked up and it was as if we'd never been it was as if we'd never been overlooking the harbor lights and our faces fell when we said goodbye overlooking the deep black sea with its stupid silent beckoning overlooking this sweet delight yeah our faces fell when we said goodbye and we hadn't even noticed it was night
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How to get to where you don't even try all we do is sit here and analyze I'd love to see you sat on a swing in the moonlight I'd hate to be you carry that weight for all time hold it so tight in your mind Thought you needed something so easily done Come to find out I am a simple one I don't mind losing just losing everything I don't mind leaving just let me pretend there was never a chance that anything good could come out of this
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Like a truck backing up Like a girl who's leaving today the solution is worse than the problem everybody gets in everybody else's way Like a truck backing up like a world run by faceless bureaucrats the solution is worse than the problem you didn't think it could get as bad as that But I'm gonna hold you close until that horrible beeping subsides I'm gonna be your friend until I lose my senses or until I die Like a truck backing up like two lovers ensnared by a shiny ring Everybody knows everybody else's business nobody understands a goddamn thing Like a truck backing up this old world has been ill-advised Everybody knows, everybody knows everybody knows, that the caution tape is just an alibi But we just got to hold on until that horrible beeping subsides Just shut your ears and think of a pretty tune a funeral march or a lullaby yeah, I'm gonna hold you close until that horrible beeping subsides yeah I'm gonna be your friend until I lose my senses, or until I die Like a truck backing up Like a girl who's leaving today the solution is worse than the problem once you start giving, you just have to pay and pay, yeah
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I'm sorry for not trying when you offered that brass ring you know the ride kept going round and I forgot everything and yes I'm sorry that you made me and then you wanted another try you said you didn't get it right the first time and it's a tough row to hoe and it doesn't get much easier and you wanted to make sure that I know that I'm sorry for the future where the seas all boil away and then the clouds cover the sky but we don't get rain I'm sorry I don't have a quick solution or a slow story to read you to sleep as we just let it go on by and it's a tough row to hoe and it doesn't get much easier and you wanted to make sure that I know that and I'm sorry for the future, now we gave away the past I didn't know and I was never asked and I'm sorry I don't have a quick solution or a slow song to sing you to sleep as we just let it go, we just let it go on by
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The cape sways in the heat off the waves the horizon melts and you're lost in the whispering reeds The sun is so still the wind so uncertain you hold your wrath, you look for the path to anywhere the picture you saw too bad, it's gone your mind is wiped clean of everything you've seen and been Hold on to yourself nothing else is left you're walking on some broken shells the sea is sucking sand beneath your feet and you double back, back into the whispering reeds Hold on
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Pulled up the drive in Richmond full of beer, a mouth of paste Who could still be living here, and why do they all look the same? Like the southern sun had melted them down And cast them in the cold Virginia ground. We crawled back to the hotel the groom was drunk and in despair In the arms of an old flame, making out at the top of the stairs Like the southern sun had broken their resolve Bad blood and desperation is all I recall ‘Cause there isn’t any reason to be waiting here like Salome for the head of John the Baptist to be brought to you upon a tray She tastes of blood and money bitterness and slow divorce It’s a gradual unwinding, like the evening takes its course And southern girls will learn to regret Everything but the sickly sweet taste of regret So she takes what’s been offered as the cake is passed around on paper plates And the bride looks terrified as she’s throwing out the bouquet She was squirming like a fish on the line Now still and sad and resigned ‘Cause there isn’t any reason but between us we’ll think of some Take what you’ve been given, don’t put your faith in anyone. It’s a stupid southern wedding, your old friends have all come out to see This lurid spectacle of a bible-thumping Greek tragedy But the southern sun melted them down And cast them in the cold Virginia ground.
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Take a look around the ground has opened the seed once sewn has grown Now you live in the sky, make galaxies while here below we cry take a look Take a look around, our mouths wide open this thing we made, all unknowing, take a look around

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The years 2011-2012 were probaby the most peculiar, difficult, and artistically rewarding of my life. Some of the things that came out of that time are on this album. A few numbers began as soundtrack ideas. River Phoenix was an inspiration, as was (stay with me now) Keanu Reeves. More significantly, various friends and musical collaborators were key to inspiring me to put this thing together, among them Matt Park, Rachel Rosenkrantz, Kate Conroy, Mina Karimi, and my brother Paul Everett. My very first musical collaborator, Carey Monserrate, was lost to this world late in 2011. Some of what he left me with is in here too, especially Overlooking and Take a Look Around, songs I didn't realize were about him until after I'd written them. Sometimes it is necessary to go to a very dark place to understand what life is about. Sometimes it is difficult to come back from there. If this record seems to go to that place a bit too much, please be patient, the next one will be merrier.

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released October 2, 2012

Matt Everett: singing, guitars, fiddle, accordion, keys, cello

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Matthew B Everett Providence, Rhode Island

Rhode Island-based musician/composer Matt Everett has recorded about five albums. He has at various times performed solo and with groups, as well as written, performed, and recorded music for films, dance pieces, circuses, etc. His most recent record White Sugar is put out by 75orLess and can be purchased on their website! Matt also plays violin and whistle w/ sea shanty band Sharks Come Cruisin. ... more

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